Two Naps a Day. :)

My little pickle has been in the process of going down for two naps a day instead of three or random 30 minute cat naps. It was a weird process because his night time sleep schedule was out of wack for about an hour or two in the morning and evening for about two weeks. I was getting confused but now that he’s settled on two naps now, we’re good to go.

So he stays awake for about three hours in between each nap and when he starts to get fussy at about 15 minutes till the 3rd hour, I know it’s time for a nap. :P So cute. And predictable now. Most days anyway. :P

Other news: he tries to walk so much! He pushes away from me when I pick him up and whines until I put him down and walk him around bent over all uncomfortable like while supporting him under his armpits. :P I sprained my wrist doing this so I broke down and bought him a walker. Yeah, yeah, they’re banned in Canada and can inhibit hip movement. But 10-15 minutes a day is probably not going to hurt, especially since I make sure he practices crawling.

I also gave him some watermelon for the first time today. He loved it! I love watching him chew food. He makes the cutest and funniest faces! Especially if the food sticks to his top lip and he tries to get it off without using his hands. Adorable!

I also can’t believe he is going to be 8 months old in a few weeks. Holy cow! He is almost 2/3rds away from being 1 year old! Nooooooo!!!! But I am looking really forward to it. <3

Over the last year I have started acting like such a child. I get frustrated when I dont get my way, I throw things or slam doors. I yell or I say mean things.

My parents acted like this. I don’t think I was ever taught how to handle my anger or my stress. Or maybe I have just never been this stressed out before. I just get so angry with myself for so much and I don’t know how to deal with my anger or let go of what makes me so angry. I’m just… stuck. I feel so stuck.

Went to a mommy group meet up today. I was really shy so I actually only talked to one person and really only because my hubby initiated the conversation because I dragged my hubby along with me too because I was scared. I don’t understand why I am so scared to try and make friends. I guess I am not sure what to talk about. I get super nervous.

But the mommy I did talk to mentioned a baby gym class that she goes to that she really liked and suggested we try it out. So hubby is going to work his schedule around so I can go meet other moms and let Eric play with other babies once a week. I am excited.

Exhausted

Eric consistently wakes up at 5am every day now. And yesterday & today he has taken zero naps. He’s crying upstairs in his crib while I am finally eating my lunch because I don’t know what else to do. To top these two days off, I get a call from hubs saying he is going to the gym after he gets off work so he won’t be home till late.

I feel like punching my husband in the face and shooting myself in the head.

I want all my married friends to get pregnant.

So we can all talk babies and future babies and dumb loving husbands and have play dates.